More things to know about me:
I'm very pragmatic. I win at pragmatism.
I like snuggling. It's my favorite.
I had a really good night last night. Thanks RO.
I really am all about love. It's a little ridiculous. I shared quite a bit last night.
That's okay. Truth is beauty, beauty truth, right? Keats?
Oh! Hi there, English nerd. We missed you.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
excuses, and ashes, and fortified wine
I know I said no more blogs, but- whatever.
Today was not a good day. Today was actually pretty rough. Nothing went right, at all. I'm feeling kind of drained, very if I'm honest, and tonight is going to be long.
This weekend was interesting. I'm not completely sure how to feel about it, but like it when things are interesting. Lately, I've been smiling more.
I was feeling dangerously close to trainwreck earlier, but I made a promise. I made a resolution. I keep those. Things I'm doing to make myself feel better- The Daily Show, buying more books, Palaver submissions- it's going to be old shit, because I haven't finished anything worth submitting in a while.
Midterm tomorrow. Oh, whatever. I'll study or I won't.
Today was not a good day. Today was actually pretty rough. Nothing went right, at all. I'm feeling kind of drained, very if I'm honest, and tonight is going to be long.
This weekend was interesting. I'm not completely sure how to feel about it, but like it when things are interesting. Lately, I've been smiling more.
I was feeling dangerously close to trainwreck earlier, but I made a promise. I made a resolution. I keep those. Things I'm doing to make myself feel better- The Daily Show, buying more books, Palaver submissions- it's going to be old shit, because I haven't finished anything worth submitting in a while.
Midterm tomorrow. Oh, whatever. I'll study or I won't.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Four Winds
Gosh, I'm just blogging all over the place. But I do have thoughts. I was actually thinking about welfare this morning.
I'm very, very liberal. I guess I'm also a Democrat, although my parents are Republicans and I didn't put much stock in political labels up until this last election (over which I lost so much sleep that it's not even funny). I was reading someone's facebook, and it said something along the lines of "I'm a Republican...because not everyone can be on welfare."
It got me thinking, because I realized that I do support welfare. It's a flawed system, because it's grossly exploited, but every system is flawed. We've seen that. The problem with taking away the system and forcing people to sink or swim is that such a strategy only works until you see just how many people sink. It's not fair, and if they're your constituents, then it's on your head. That's what civic responsibility is when you're a politician. Take care of the people who have no choice but to trust you. And yeah, people get away with exploiting the system, but look at Tom Daschle, Tim Geitner, Rod Blagojevich. You think they weren't exploiting a system too? It happens on every level. Don't even get me started talking about Hurricane Katrina. I might get sick.
Speaking of facebook- I makes lists. Here's a list of facebook statuses.
Mary is Vitamin B12.
Mary is retail therapy.
Mary is buying books.
Mary is writing.
Mary is a soul singer in a session band.
Mary is a true patron of the arts.
Mary is a rolling stone.
Mary is exhausted (but what else is new?)
Mary is surviving (but not really in a Destiny's child sense).
Mary misses Destiny's child.
Mary is really sad about Rhianna.
Mary anticipates losing more sleep.
Mary has some scars to heal (silly kitticat).
Mary lied when she said she lives sans regrets.
Mary lied in the abovementioned lie. No regrets.
Mary is DIRECTING A SHOW. Finally. I've needed something to care about. I'm at my lowest points when I'm not working in theatre or film. I'm really excited. It's beautifully written, and it's going to be a huge challenge. I have plans though. I can't wait to see how this goes.
You know, I'm blonde,
I'm living in Southern California,
I have a 24" waist,
I have friends that love me,
I have a show to care about,
I have goals to work towards,
I'm finally writing again, a lot and every day. I'm a writer first.
I should be happy, and I am. It's enough. It's definitely enough.
And a season to sleep, and a place to get clean. Maybe Los Angeles.
I can't afford to compromise that. I've been skinny, sad, and scared far too much. Maybe I do have regrets. Maybe I will.
(The wind, when it blows it is older than Rome, and our joy, and our sorrow.)
I'm very, very liberal. I guess I'm also a Democrat, although my parents are Republicans and I didn't put much stock in political labels up until this last election (over which I lost so much sleep that it's not even funny). I was reading someone's facebook, and it said something along the lines of "I'm a Republican...because not everyone can be on welfare."
It got me thinking, because I realized that I do support welfare. It's a flawed system, because it's grossly exploited, but every system is flawed. We've seen that. The problem with taking away the system and forcing people to sink or swim is that such a strategy only works until you see just how many people sink. It's not fair, and if they're your constituents, then it's on your head. That's what civic responsibility is when you're a politician. Take care of the people who have no choice but to trust you. And yeah, people get away with exploiting the system, but look at Tom Daschle, Tim Geitner, Rod Blagojevich. You think they weren't exploiting a system too? It happens on every level. Don't even get me started talking about Hurricane Katrina. I might get sick.
Speaking of facebook- I makes lists. Here's a list of facebook statuses.
Mary is Vitamin B12.
Mary is retail therapy.
Mary is buying books.
Mary is writing.
Mary is a soul singer in a session band.
Mary is a true patron of the arts.
Mary is a rolling stone.
Mary is exhausted (but what else is new?)
Mary is surviving (but not really in a Destiny's child sense).
Mary misses Destiny's child.
Mary is really sad about Rhianna.
Mary anticipates losing more sleep.
Mary has some scars to heal (silly kitticat).
Mary lied when she said she lives sans regrets.
Mary lied in the abovementioned lie. No regrets.
Mary is DIRECTING A SHOW. Finally. I've needed something to care about. I'm at my lowest points when I'm not working in theatre or film. I'm really excited. It's beautifully written, and it's going to be a huge challenge. I have plans though. I can't wait to see how this goes.
You know, I'm blonde,
I'm living in Southern California,
I have a 24" waist,
I have friends that love me,
I have a show to care about,
I have goals to work towards,
I'm finally writing again, a lot and every day. I'm a writer first.
I should be happy, and I am. It's enough. It's definitely enough.
And a season to sleep, and a place to get clean. Maybe Los Angeles.
I can't afford to compromise that. I've been skinny, sad, and scared far too much. Maybe I do have regrets. Maybe I will.
(The wind, when it blows it is older than Rome, and our joy, and our sorrow.)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
tell me, baby. what's your story?
"Did you miss me?" "I missed me."
SO, on one hand, I'm a stupid blonde who makes bad decisions.
On the other hand, we all have to work through our damage sometime.
Oh, look at me talking about damage, like I knew something about it.
I just like to make things difficult for myself, which is why I'm probably going to audition for WTO even though it would make my life ridiculously complicated. Oh, wait?
I don't know. Last year, either Lambda Chi or Sigma Nu had pink champagne for Valentines Day. I missed it because I was too busy being kinda mopey. I don't know about this year. I think maybe I should go, It would be nice to have pink champagne.
It would be nice to have a lot of things. I'm glad I bought a sweatshirt.
SO, on one hand, I'm a stupid blonde who makes bad decisions.
On the other hand, we all have to work through our damage sometime.
Oh, look at me talking about damage, like I knew something about it.
I just like to make things difficult for myself, which is why I'm probably going to audition for WTO even though it would make my life ridiculously complicated. Oh, wait?
I don't know. Last year, either Lambda Chi or Sigma Nu had pink champagne for Valentines Day. I missed it because I was too busy being kinda mopey. I don't know about this year. I think maybe I should go, It would be nice to have pink champagne.
It would be nice to have a lot of things. I'm glad I bought a sweatshirt.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
the everyday turned solitary, so we came to February.
Aimless ≠ trainwreck. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. Question remains, why the hell am I so directionless this semester? This was supposed to be the year of motivation. I don't even know.
I just listened to the Darkness', "I Believe in a Thing Called Love." They were a great band, so much potential. Too bad they burned out too fast.
Stress. Over what? I don't know. I think I need to be moving again. I never do well when I try to settle. I'm trying to settle now, in Los Angeles. It isn't working. I keep daydreaming about roadtrips. My cat is pretty mellow. She could come.
Speaking of my cat, she just bit me in the face. Ow. Ridiculous cat.
Oh, lovely. Just what I needed to make my day even better: a DPS Crime Report. At least this time it was just an armed robbery.
Oliver Mayer's show is tonight. It's a special show for USC students. I'm really excited. It's about love and identity, and it's based on the 1001 nights. It'll be nice to remind myself what the right piece of art can do for inspiration.
I realize I forgot to mention the Pillowman. It was very good, but on such another level that I don't even think it's appropriate to write about it.
On a completely unrelated subject, I just created a pretty awkward situation for a crowd of businessmen on the street. Got to stop walking around topless.
It's funny. I still have hope. I get like this every year in the Spring. It's like reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder. Every single year.
This year, it's different because I'm smiling. Because I still have hope.
I just listened to the Darkness', "I Believe in a Thing Called Love." They were a great band, so much potential. Too bad they burned out too fast.
Stress. Over what? I don't know. I think I need to be moving again. I never do well when I try to settle. I'm trying to settle now, in Los Angeles. It isn't working. I keep daydreaming about roadtrips. My cat is pretty mellow. She could come.
Speaking of my cat, she just bit me in the face. Ow. Ridiculous cat.
Oh, lovely. Just what I needed to make my day even better: a DPS Crime Report. At least this time it was just an armed robbery.
Oliver Mayer's show is tonight. It's a special show for USC students. I'm really excited. It's about love and identity, and it's based on the 1001 nights. It'll be nice to remind myself what the right piece of art can do for inspiration.
I realize I forgot to mention the Pillowman. It was very good, but on such another level that I don't even think it's appropriate to write about it.
On a completely unrelated subject, I just created a pretty awkward situation for a crowd of businessmen on the street. Got to stop walking around topless.
It's funny. I still have hope. I get like this every year in the Spring. It's like reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder. Every single year.
This year, it's different because I'm smiling. Because I still have hope.
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